We continued to write every day letters and I began to call him. It was good I had some money and could pay big phone bills. Sometimes I even didn't know what I want to say and what I want to hear from him, I wanted to hear his voice, to be close to him. I even didn't understand how I began to fell in love with him, how Ted became necessary thing in my life. I already couldn't live without communication with him. I was worry when I didn't get letters from him and asked God to send me e-mail.
I was working and sometimes it was fun how during my launch when I should to cook dinner for kids on the kitchen I was running between kitchen and told with Ted on computer. Few times we argued but very fast we found piece. I discovered I can't be angry with Ted long time, I felt bad and best way was piece. One time when we told with him in ICQ, Ted told me Deb came and she is here. I misunderstood him and thought they are together near computer and look at writing foolish russian girl. I was shocked. It was late night for me and I should turn off computer suddenly because Oleg came from bed and began to complain I still with computer so late. Yes, it was truth last time I began to prefer spend more time talking on computer with Ted than with him. Ted was in my heart. I felt very bad after this case and called to Ted few times to understand situation right.
I always felt Ted is very sexy man and very often I closed my eyes and imaged how we could making love with him. Before my sleeping my favorite thing was to think about Ted, to image what he is doing now, how he is looking. It made me smile on my face, I began to love him in my heart although I didn't understand this and didn't want to believe in it.
Close to the spring I began to think about visit him in the states. At first it was shocked idea for me, for my family but then with some time this idea wasn't new and I began to do real steps to do this day true. I got my foreign passport and started to keep money for tickets. I knew I will not be able to gather money for tickets, visa, living there. I told about this Ted and he promised to help me and to send invitation.
Summer went fast I got next package from Ted and sent him my video. I tried to be on video nice and sexy but now I am seeing how it was silly. Why people always want to be better than they are?..lol.
Ted's letters were so interesting and one day I printed almost all his letters and then I enjoyed reading of them. I understood he knows women very well and he has big experience, only I didn't know what.
