‘There are things they can verify that we can’t,’ I explain, ‘like when she last used her bank account or an ATM, where she was then. Like… I don’t know… phone records. They know what they’re doing.’
‘Bloody hope so.’ His shoulders drop, he exhales noisily. ‘I’ll come with you tomorrow,’ he says.
‘One thirty, the station on Elizabeth Slinger Road. Bring anything you have, your laptop, emails, texts, times you Skyped.’
‘Why is Tom here?’ Isaac has appeared, his face slack with sleep, scratching his belly with one hand, the other clasped at the back of his neck.
No one speaks for a moment. Then Isaac says, ‘Is Lori here?’ His face alert with excitement.
‘No,’ I say quickly. ‘Tom just popped in. And you need to get back to bed.’
‘Come on, Tiger,’ says Nick.
‘I want Mummy.’
‘Go on,’ I say. ‘Daddy will piggy-back you. I’ll be up in a minute.’
Nick crouches and Isaac climbs onto his back.
Once we’re alone Tom just stares at me. I don’t know what he wants and wait for him to speak. He stuffs his hands into his pockets. ‘She could just have taken that holiday,’ he says.
‘Yes,’ I say. But it’s more of a prayer than a belief.
Something has shifted. I half hoped that the detective would send us on our way, belittle our concerns, ridicule our fears. The fact that we were taken so seriously, attended to, and that the wheels will be set in motion to investigate, gives a cold, dense weight to my worries.
I’m an automaton at work, answering the phone, taking in absence notes and completed parents’ evening slips from the most organized families. I deal with little Martha Kentaway, who has a ferocious nosebleed.
At break I am suddenly self-conscious in the staffroom. Pam picks up on my stiffness. She stops her anecdote about a family barbecue and says, ‘Jo, are you OK?’
‘Not really.’ I place one hand over my mug. The steam from the tea is hot, too hot really, but I leave my hand there. ‘We’ve reported Lori missing.’
There is a collective double-take, a one-two punch of surprise, then a ripple of emotion. I see it in Henry’s eyes, in the way Zoë’s hand flies to her throat, and hear it in the soft exclamation that Sunita makes. Grace and Pam both speak together, asking questions.
‘No one’s heard from her since the second of April,’ I say. ‘We have to go back to the police station at half past one.’ I glance at Grace.
‘Of course,’ she says, ‘and if there’s anything we can do…’ Her mouth twists, a shrug,
